I think I need this t-shirt. This is the running mantra I've had going through my head for months now...maybe if I had it in print, I'd start to believe it.

I've been really trying to not give myself a pity party...but I'm slowly (ok, quickly) losing hope for this cycle. I know that technically it's still "early", but HPT's are coming up negative. I'm trying to brace myself for the official BFN on Thursday. I handled the first one pretty well, but I have a feeling this one's going to be a little tougher.

Knowing that this is most likely the end of the road for IUI's... it's a big step. I was (I thought) emotionally ready for it. Now I'm starting to second guess it. Scratch that... I'm not second guessing the fact that IVF is our best option. I trust our RE completely when he says this is our best option. I've even talked to enough ladies in very similar (if not exact) situations as Hubby and I...all have moved onto/are in the process of moving onto IVF. In fact, three of the four just got their BFP's on their first IVF cycle. I think what I'm second guessing now is - should I be pushing for more testing? Did we/our RE stop too soon? Once they got back Hubby's SA, did they "skip" any tests on me?...assuming there wasn't any other issues? If that's the case and there is another "issue", then IVF might not work at first either.

I know I sound like a worry-wart and I'm probably over analyzing everything to an extreme. Hubby says I need to "not worry about anything until Thursday". Ha! Easier said than done...