Vent...

This has been bothering me now for over a week. I even brought it up to Hubby last night and told him that I was still thinking about it and couldn't get it out of my head. He must've known I was serious because instead of saying "Oh, don't worry about it...", he said "I know...but you and I both know that she always says things without thinking. Just don't take anything she say seriously."



You might be asking, "What made this uber-calm girl so upset??" Well, Hubby and I attended a party a little over a week ago. It was a family party and we got there early to help set-up, etc. Hubby had told a couple of people there our news, but wanted to tell the rest. So, before the entire family got there, he told a few others. One of the people he told is a "kind-of cousin" (he's Italian...EVERYONE is a cousin) through marriage. She was really excited for us and even started to tear up. I'd never openly discussed our IF treatments with her, but I pretty much knew she had heard through the grapevine some of our struggles. She proceeded to go on and on...asking lots of questions and telling me how excited she was for us. "Knowing everything you guys have been through...you deserve this! You're going to be amazing parents!" etc. etc...

So why am I upset? Sounds like she was great, right? Well, here's the kicker... A couple hours later, while the party is in full swing, I'm sitting next to her and overhear some things that made my ears perk up. Ok, it's not like I was eavesdropping...I was literally right next to her and she's NOT a quiet person. Basically, she and another (much older) party-goer starts discussing Infertility and how "people nowadays just expect to get pregnant on their own time frame" and how "when that doesn't work they immediately jump to see a specialist" and "well, OF COURSE the specialist is going to suggest IVF immediately...that's how they make their money!"

Sadly, this went on...and on...and on... for at least 15 mins. Poor Hubby leg was bruised from me squeezing so hard.

Normally, I would have spoken up and explained to these two idiots how incredibly insensitive their conversation was. However, I knew that if I said even one word, I would completely lose it. I wasn't sure if my breakdown would entail me screaming... or hysterically crying. Either way, I figured it was more appropriate for me to say nothing than to ruin his cousin's party.

Now I'm regretting this. I can't even look at this person without wanting to wrap my hands around her neck. While I would like to believe that this was just a huge lapse in judgment, the problem is...Hubby is right. This person NEVER thinks before she speaks. It's one thing to be opinionated... I myself am at times...but it's a totally different thing to spout out such hateful things - an hour after you congratulate someone who only got their miracle FROM IVF!!

... Do you see my frustration? Any words of wisdom, ladies? ...'cuz it's gonna be a lonnng 50+ years of me trying to keep my composure in front of her; espeicially when (God willing) we have our miracle in our hands, and she decides she wants to touch him/her. Mama Bear WILL come out...