Moving on to cycle...15??

or is it 16?? I'm not sure...I'm losing track now. I knew what the results of my beta would be...but it only lessened the blow a little. I'd taken several tests over the course of the long weekend (all negative of course) and had been kind of crampy (ok, and maybe a little moody) - so I pretty much knew the beta would be negative.



My stomach was in knots all day and I kept checking my phone to see if I had a message. Around 9am there was a voicemail from a strange number. I had already said that I wouldn't listen to the voicemail until I was home (finding out in the middle of the school day - I thought it'd be too much). When I finally got the guts to listen to it (3 hours later) it wasn't even from the RE! I didn't get the voicemail from our RE nurse until around 2:30. As soon as I got into the car, I listened. Of course, all it said was basically, "Hi-It's Helaine. Give me a call when you get this." Immediately I knew...she would have left good news if there was any to give. When I did finally get in touch with her, she was really sweet about it. She said she really hates leaving bad news on our voicemails, and always wants to talk to us to make sure we don't have any questions.

I was a little shocked when she said "So you and Hubby want to move to IVF now, right?" Umm...that might have been our original thought, but my mind has kinda gotten used to the idea that I WOULDN'T be stickin myself with tons of needles and experiencing everything that comes with IVF - so soon in my student teaching. I pretty much told her this. She kind of paused and said she'd talk it over with our doctor and get back to us. She even told me not to reorder the Clomid just yet - in case he really felt that another IUI was a waste of our time. Not gonna lie...I was a little shaken...

UPDATE: Since this post sat in my "saved folder" for several days, I can now officially say that we are going to try another IUI. Our RE feels that though our chances are still very low (chances shmances...), he understands why we need to give it one more shot. He also said he will monitor be much closer this cycle. Umm ok... ANY monitoring at all would be more than last cycle...but I'll try to keep my bitterness in check.

So meds have been ordered! Saturday we start cycle # whatever it is... aka IUI cycle #2. If this one is a bust too, then....get ready folks... it's on to IVF we go.